Hallucinations

I... I almost left Laura. Back at the house. I almost killed her. HIS song is making it hard to think. I'm starting to lose it. Thinking maybe it would be easier just to give in. I mean she's going die anyway right? Better me than smiley right? I wouldn't be alone anymore. I would have a family again. How wonderful it would be.

No.....no.....no. C'mon Roy get a grip. That's Slendy talking not you.

Okay....okay. So I grabbed a book bag I found in the house this morning and filled it with my weapons and some supplies. I convinced myself it was safer for her if I just left. I was confronted as I left. As I was walking away this is what happened.

N: do you really think this is the solution?

I didn't have to turn around to know it was Nick.

R: It's all I can do.

N: do you think leaving will make her life safe? Slendy isn't the only one who's after her, you know that.

R: smiley wont touch her, slender will make sure of that. He wants me to do it myself. He won't let anyone else do it.

N: maybe.... But how long will that last? Slendy will only keep you around till he's bored with you. Then what will happen to her?

R: Laura's strong. She can take care of herself.

N: You'll last longer together. How long do you think you'll last? You can barely focus. Ritter has more control over you than you think.

R: I'm in control! Not that bastard!

N: your fighting a losing battle! Your fighting for control and he's winning. You know you won't last much longer at this rate.

R: I will win! I'm.... I'm in control....

N: look at you your losing it! You know you are. You know that this isn't the solution. You know running wont solve anything.

R: it's for the be-

N: you keep telling yourself that! It's for the best! For who though? Don't lie to yourself. Your running away at the first sign of trouble because your scared! Is that all you know how to do run? Your all talk! What was it you said to wolf? "in the end I might only play the fool and ill die a fools death. But I won't be a coward." That's all you are! Your nothing but a coward. There's a little bit of trouble and you run away tail in between your legs!

R: stop....

N: your afraid it will happen again! You haven't moved on!

R: please....

N: you think that my death is your fault! That Izzy was your fault!

R: stop it!

N: you don't want to stick around because your scared it will happen again! That she'll be killed or taken and there won't be a damn thing you can do about it!

R: JUST STOP!

N: hurts doesn't it? The truth always does. The truth that your nothing but a damn coward.

R: what do I do then!?

N: if your scared she'll be killed then don't let it happen! Get stronger! To protect her and yourself! Running is never a permanent solution Roy. So stop running and start fighting. But it's your choice in the end. I can't make this choice for you. I'm not even real after all. Which will you take Roy?

R: what?

N: which will you take? Path of needles or path of pins?

Even in death Nick kicks my ass when I need it.

I turned around and there was of course no one there. His song is loud as ever. But I will try to fight it. For her sake. Ill stay for now. I didn't like that my hallucination was quoting wolf... It was kind of creepy.

Oh there was one other thing I found rather disturbing. When I got back to the front door there was another bouquet. It was comprised entirely of black roses. This can't be good.

God I need a vacation.