Realization

It was brought to my attention by wolf that I was allowing my emotions to take too much control and it was stopping me from any rational thinking. For that she has my thanks. She is right in the fact that if I can't keep my emotions under control that this will be a short fight for me. Honestly it should have ended for me back at the hospital when I charged Slendy like a retard. Had he wanted me dead I would of died right there. I can't allow myself to let my emotions take control like that.

I'm still at the motel and I still haven't gotten a wink of sleep. Nick should be released any day now. I keep thinking back to the masked man and thinking of why he had been sent. If not to kill me then why? Maybe it had been to test me.... But slendy already knew what I was capable of from our little bout outside of the hospital where he swatted me like a fly. So why? Izzy's words kept replaying in my head that slender would take everything I cared about before he came for me. That's when I had a grim realization. I felt so stupid it had been right in front of me.

That proxy hadn't come for me at all he had came to kill nick. But wolf was right when she said he was sloppy he had missed anything vital. But who's to say slender wont send a more experienced proxy next time.

As soon as nick gets out of the hospital were leaving. I'm going to be a little more careful from now on. So no answering doors at 3 o'clock in the morning.

See y'all later.